"I'm kind of a big deal!"

Journal entry - 12/2008

While out at the Sportcenter, I was standing by the bar talking with Mike and Katie.  Out of the corner of my eye I noticed this guy looking at me.  He was hot.  Tattoos, goatee, white bandana on his head..very bad boy looking type.  He came up to me and started flirting with me a little.  He was very cocky..which I liked, and was very loud.  Him and his friends kept yelling out "Do You Know Who I Am!!".  Every time he started yelling Kaite and I just started laughing.  It was frickin hilarious.  Of course we came up with a nickname "RAGE."  After he introduced himself to us, he preceded to say "I'm kind of a big deal".  Obviously very over confident in himself.  I didn't care though cuz he was so damn good to look at.  As we were chatting he had his hands around my waist and tried to kiss me.  Since this was just the start of Mike and I trying the whole open relationship thing, I pulled away and turned to see what Mike was thinking about that. Keep in mind, Rage did not know that Mike was my husband.  Mike said go for it, so I pulled him into me and slid my tongue into his mouth and kissed him.  Wow, it was so hot!  So at the end of the night as we were leaving Rage was trying to talk me into going with him to his place.  I wanted to so damn bad but since Mike was with me I told him no, but I gave him my number so he could call me.  (Trust me this is not the last you will hear of Rage)

So on Monday, while I was at work I get a text from Mike.  He sent me a picture of what the cap on his Sobe bottle said..."You're kind of a big deal."  Interesting that this is he same thing that Rage told me at the bar about himself...hmmm.  Needless to say this was the new saying for the next few months...lol.

Polyamory

Polyamory means "many loves."  Who said that you have to love one person intimatly for the rest of your life?  I have come to the realization that I mentally and physically cannot be happy with the traditional marriage.  I dont know how and I dont know when but I have fallen in love with two men.  Two wonderful men that make me happy.  And if this makes me happy, it has to be the right thing for me.

I love my husband, who wouldn't.  He is a amazing man that I want to spend the rest of my life with.  He is my best friend, and the father of my children.  We always know what the other is thinking and we make each other laugh over the stupidest things.  We understand each other and are there for one another in any situations.  Most of all he loves me for me....girly emotions and all.

I am also falling in love with someone else, an amazing person that doesn't even realize how wonderful he is.  It's a new type of love.  You girls remember that kind of love right.  The kind that sweeps you off of your feet, gives you butterflies in your stomach kind of love.  We connect on this intense physical and emotional level.  I can't picture my life without him at this point.  It's that intense new love that I am drawn to.

I'm not saying that Polyamory the way life should be.  But for people that struggle with the traditional marriage, how bad would it be to love more than one person.  To truly share your life with two people that love you.  It's not a better way to live life, it's just a different way that works for me.

"Purple Shirt Guy"

Journal entry - 12/17/2008

Me, Mike and my friend Katie went to a local bar to have a couple drinks and listen to some music.  Katie and I were standing at a table when this really hot guy, we will call him "Purple Shirt Guy", walked by.  Neither one of us knew who this guy was but could not help to notice that he was checkin us out.  I though he was freakin cute.  Tall, dark hair that was spiked a little, he was mexican but light skinned, and he had the most amazing dark eyes.  Every time he looked at me I could not get myself to look away.  All I have to say is WOW!  Of course, Mike was laughing at the the way Katie and I were playing eye games with him all night.  I noticed at the table he was sitting at was a girl, it looked like they were together.  So i had to talk myself out of going over there and talking to him.  They finally left later in the night and Katie and I went on to the next guy to play around with.  But I still had the hot "Purple Shirt Guy" in my head, and was mad at myself for not talking to him.

A couple days later I was on the computer on a swingers website, just looking to see what was out there.  This single guy messaged me and asked if my husband and I were interested in having a guy join us sometime.  I told him it would depend on the guy.  If I was going to play around with another guy, we would need to have both a physical and mental connection.  He agreed and he asked me for a face pic of us.  I sent him one of Mike and I....this was the conversation after I sent the pic:

PSG:  Guess what?
Me:  What do you know us or something?
PSG:  Do you remember the guy you were checking out at the bar on Saturday?
Me: Which one, there were a few that night?
PSG: I was the guy sitting at the table with a girl and you kept looking over at me?
Me:  Are you the guy with the hot girlfriend or the guy with the purple shirt?
PSG: Purple Shirt
Me: Purple shirt guy huh?  I think you were the one checking me out!

I could feel my heart skip a beat.  What are the freaking oddds that the guy I was playing eye games at the bar that weekend just happened to be the guy on this swinger website wanting to know if I want to get together sometime.  I can't wait to see how this strange coincidence turns out!

My First Post

So I guess I should talk a little bit about me and how I got to be where I am now.....I have been married for almost 8 years and we have 3 kids. I also have my teenage sister living with me (no fun sometimes). My life the last year has been crazy...I mean really crazy. Full of coinsidences and strange, how did that just happen to me, type of stuff. I have been wanting to start a blog...anonymous of course, for sometime now. I figure that all those housewives that are out there, some like me, some not ,would love to read about the crazy soap opera that my life has become. All do to my choices of course...and no I am not complaining. Makes like interesting and far from boring. Some of you may say that "you have kids, how can life be boring." I agree to some extent...but then I believe married couple has two important parts of their lives; their is "mom and dad" life (kids, work, homelife), then there is "Sarynn and Mike " life ( the time that is so important in an marriage where you can be alone, connect and reconnect with one another and not worry or focus on everyday life). I think that alot of couples lose site of "Sarynn and Mike".  Now, we are not you average married couple. We dont believe in the traditional marriage. Nothing wrong with the traditional marriage but it just doesnt work for us.  A year ago we decided to try something a little less traditional you can say.  We decided on more of an open marriage.  Free to have "friends" on the side, free to have our own time, as long as it doesnt take away from our family. OOOOH shocker I know.  But if u dont want to read about it, click the X at the top right hand side of the box. 

So when I write my stories, all of it is true, names have been changed so that I dont get anyone in trouble.  I will be posting some pics, because some stories just are not as good unless you have the pic to refer to.  Hope you enjoy!