Out with the old and in with the new...............

So am sitting here thinking about the last couple of weeks. Now that a very fun (hot) (crazy) chapter in my life is closing.  I'm not sure what to think of it right now.  A part of me is sad.  A part of me is really mad.  Another part of me is lonely and not sure what to do with the road ahead.  But another part of me is maybe at a sigh of relief.  I didn't realize until now how much time and effort I put into caring about someone that wouldn't put even half as much of his time and effort into me.  I am realizing who I am and what I deserve and should expect from that certain someone that I want to spend my extra time with.  I don't want someone that doesn't know how they feel about me.  I know that I am not your average girl.  I am fun and easy-going and awesome.  If someone is to scared or blind to realize that Sarynn...MOVE ON! Of course that is easier said than done sometimes.  As far back as I can remember, I have always been attracted to a guy that is "almost nice"....meaning a guy that can be nice at times but is generally an asshole when you really step back and look at the big picture.  I can't help it.  I get it from my mother. (bitch)....  But I think that I am ready to change that.  I am ready give my extra time to a guy that feels damn lucky to hang with me and that is not afraid to fricken admit it!.